Sunday, July 15, 2012
mmm. something doesnt feel right at random times of the day for me. well at least for the past week. there are times of the day where i feel so emotionless... more like down..? idonno.
i just donno how to explain it.
hopfully this werid feeling will go away soon.
i just donno how to explain it.
hopfully this werid feeling will go away soon.
what we could have been, 6:49 AM.
Saturday, June 2, 2012
mmm. attempting to study.. read this..: Loneliness – “a painful awareness that our social relationships are less numerous or meaningful than we desire. and this: Lonely people – self-defeating social cognitions and behaviours – can blame themselves for poor social relationships, most things out of their control and believe that they are socially inept – outcome – avoid social situations, perceive others negatively, low self esteem.
it sucks cos it seem like this is all applicable here..
worked today. logged onto facebook. remembered that it was a 'friend's' wedding from church today.. already felt funni not being able to be part of it.. finished work. got home. logged onto facebook again. saw more photos.
reality hit.. realli not part of 'church' animore.. prob never really was. saw those photos. even one that was never really at church attented.. where as for me.. still sitting at home. in bed. and just typing this.
speechless...
reality sucks. realizing reality annoys me more.
aish.
w.e.
it sucks cos it seem like this is all applicable here..
worked today. logged onto facebook. remembered that it was a 'friend's' wedding from church today.. already felt funni not being able to be part of it.. finished work. got home. logged onto facebook again. saw more photos.
reality hit.. realli not part of 'church' animore.. prob never really was. saw those photos. even one that was never really at church attented.. where as for me.. still sitting at home. in bed. and just typing this.
speechless...
reality sucks. realizing reality annoys me more.
aish.
w.e.
what we could have been, 2:21 AM.
Monday, May 7, 2012
Offically 20 years old now.
life currently goin down this long roller coaster ride... hoping it can go up soon enough.
promise to work for what i want.
since wanting to do it is different to actually doing it.
life currently goin down this long roller coaster ride... hoping it can go up soon enough.
promise to work for what i want.
since wanting to do it is different to actually doing it.
what we could have been, 6:10 PM.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
finally got myself working to catch up with friends. JEss and Tassie :)
such a goodd feelings~!!
well jess came over to my palace, caught up on alot. so much that i didnt know!!! but glad im up to date again.
we met up with Tassie at Strat. and the lil adventure around strat was pretty interesting and entertaining =]
found parking, walked to Pappa Rottii.. ddint end up getting anithing, walked to Moochi^^ line was too long ddint end up buy either (lol-dw interesting parts coming up )
walked out side saw TASSSIIEE!! hahah but since she was hungry and she wanted proper food so we started walking to find proper food.
On the way.. bumped into Mr Derek Quan... and Mitc LMAO the most Random and unexpected meetup~ had a lil chat and we went off to our own separate ways.
we ended up eating at beauty and the beast. and as for dessert we went back to Moochi^^
while lining up jess saw her friend and started chatting awayy buh unfortunity we had to interupp her and get her to order our Moochhis haha
while enjoying our cups of mocchi at the strt plaza foodcourt Mr MAtt tao showed up. he wanted Coffee, we ended up at Pumpkin Cafe. there saw Rocky xD ahhahah rannddoomm!!! totally unexpcted once again.
after a while Jeremy and Gordon walked pass lol...
i swear this was suppose to b a LITTLE catch upw ith JEss and Tasie to being with. and then somehow it ended up to b so many ppl!!
but it was good good. it felt good to be out and around again.. once in a while^^
but... one thing... i miss. still havent caught up with Tiff yet>< aiyyaa!
such a goodd feelings~!!
well jess came over to my palace, caught up on alot. so much that i didnt know!!! but glad im up to date again.
we met up with Tassie at Strat. and the lil adventure around strat was pretty interesting and entertaining =]
found parking, walked to Pappa Rottii.. ddint end up getting anithing, walked to Moochi^^ line was too long ddint end up buy either (lol-dw interesting parts coming up )
walked out side saw TASSSIIEE!! hahah but since she was hungry and she wanted proper food so we started walking to find proper food.
On the way.. bumped into Mr Derek Quan... and Mitc LMAO the most Random and unexpected meetup~ had a lil chat and we went off to our own separate ways.
we ended up eating at beauty and the beast. and as for dessert we went back to Moochi^^
while lining up jess saw her friend and started chatting awayy buh unfortunity we had to interupp her and get her to order our Moochhis haha
while enjoying our cups of mocchi at the strt plaza foodcourt Mr MAtt tao showed up. he wanted Coffee, we ended up at Pumpkin Cafe. there saw Rocky xD ahhahah rannddoomm!!! totally unexpcted once again.
after a while Jeremy and Gordon walked pass lol...
i swear this was suppose to b a LITTLE catch upw ith JEss and Tasie to being with. and then somehow it ended up to b so many ppl!!
but it was good good. it felt good to be out and around again.. once in a while^^
but... one thing... i miss. still havent caught up with Tiff yet>< aiyyaa!
what we could have been, 5:52 AM.
今日终于见到巨！！！ 哎呀
what we could have been, 5:47 AM.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
i feel that i really do need a break.
i've been home the whole day. tried to study for the day. barely got more then enough done. fail...
when i think i start making progress... i get disturbed.
by news that not only shock me, it surprised me, and somehow hurted too.
one> which was shock but on the good side: a work mate quited. cant stand the manager no more, quitted in the morning.
two> the most stocking and made me had a large number of mix feelings.
dad crash his car into the restaurant back door.... car cant be revered back out. the restaurant cant close its doors, wall got knocked down and some of their gas pipe things are broken too.
from what i heard the restaurant need to prepare for a wedding banquet too tommo....
i guess the fact that dad is fine is assuring but.. all the financial problems that it may bring is hurting my head.
i need to get back to study but right now all my energy is drained out of me. i don't have enough to work with....
what to do....head ache.. restless...
i've been home the whole day. tried to study for the day. barely got more then enough done. fail...
when i think i start making progress... i get disturbed.
by news that not only shock me, it surprised me, and somehow hurted too.
one> which was shock but on the good side: a work mate quited. cant stand the manager no more, quitted in the morning.
two> the most stocking and made me had a large number of mix feelings.
dad crash his car into the restaurant back door.... car cant be revered back out. the restaurant cant close its doors, wall got knocked down and some of their gas pipe things are broken too.
from what i heard the restaurant need to prepare for a wedding banquet too tommo....
i guess the fact that dad is fine is assuring but.. all the financial problems that it may bring is hurting my head.
i need to get back to study but right now all my energy is drained out of me. i don't have enough to work with....
what to do....head ache.. restless...
what we could have been, 5:14 AM.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Ouching at the fact that i am suppose to be starting my research paper. and be as close as a finish. yet i've done nothing but finding excuses that it is ok. i can finish it soon once i make a start i can finish....
and that is what i am doing at this very moment.... finding an excuse and ignoring what is ahead of me..
Regretting the fact that i am not going to the KPOP music fest concert that i've always wanted to go.... regretting the fact that i didnt get to do something that i really wanted to accomplish...
in a way.. i know that if i was to go, i'll regret it if i didnt finish the stupid research papers and study for these exams.
already failed before and dont want to do it again. the consequences of failing is just too much.. both time and money....
and now that i finally decided to not go... im regretting it also...
so its a lose lose situation. not a win win.
owell.
Ouch again since that i realize how long i havent blogged and kept up to date with my friend..s..?
so much had happened not just on myself but others that i fail to take notice in.
i am sorry for not noticing and be there to help.
maybe i won't end up being any help even if i was there..... what am i thinking.. honestly....
maybe i should make a move. and i will. after this blog. mmmm...
what else. sigh. typing as i am saying this out. bad english and bad gramma. man i just dont change do i.
not improving much in english.... and downgrading in chinese.. what a position i am in.
i give up. maybe blog again soon...
soon,...
sooon.. (ha, my kinda soon is not as soon as u think it may be...)
and that is what i am doing at this very moment.... finding an excuse and ignoring what is ahead of me..
Regretting the fact that i am not going to the KPOP music fest concert that i've always wanted to go.... regretting the fact that i didnt get to do something that i really wanted to accomplish...
in a way.. i know that if i was to go, i'll regret it if i didnt finish the stupid research papers and study for these exams.
already failed before and dont want to do it again. the consequences of failing is just too much.. both time and money....
and now that i finally decided to not go... im regretting it also...
so its a lose lose situation. not a win win.
owell.
Ouch again since that i realize how long i havent blogged and kept up to date with my friend..s..?
so much had happened not just on myself but others that i fail to take notice in.
i am sorry for not noticing and be there to help.
maybe i won't end up being any help even if i was there..... what am i thinking.. honestly....
maybe i should make a move. and i will. after this blog. mmmm...
what else. sigh. typing as i am saying this out. bad english and bad gramma. man i just dont change do i.
not improving much in english.... and downgrading in chinese.. what a position i am in.
i give up. maybe blog again soon...
soon,...
sooon.. (ha, my kinda soon is not as soon as u think it may be...)
what we could have been, 2:08 AM.
