Saturday, June 2, 2012
mmm. attempting to study.. read this..: Loneliness – “a painful awareness that our social relationships are less numerous or meaningful than we desire. and this: Lonely people – self-defeating social cognitions and behaviours – can blame themselves for poor social relationships, most things out of their control and believe that they are socially inept – outcome – avoid social situations, perceive others negatively, low self esteem.
it sucks cos it seem like this is all applicable here..
worked today. logged onto facebook. remembered that it was a 'friend's' wedding from church today.. already felt funni not being able to be part of it.. finished work. got home. logged onto facebook again. saw more photos.
reality hit.. realli not part of 'church' animore.. prob never really was. saw those photos. even one that was never really at church attented.. where as for me.. still sitting at home. in bed. and just typing this.
speechless...
reality sucks. realizing reality annoys me more.
aish.
w.e.
it sucks cos it seem like this is all applicable here..
worked today. logged onto facebook. remembered that it was a 'friend's' wedding from church today.. already felt funni not being able to be part of it.. finished work. got home. logged onto facebook again. saw more photos.
reality hit.. realli not part of 'church' animore.. prob never really was. saw those photos. even one that was never really at church attented.. where as for me.. still sitting at home. in bed. and just typing this.
speechless...
reality sucks. realizing reality annoys me more.
aish.
w.e.
what we could have been, 2:21 AM.
