Thursday, November 25, 2010
there are happi things and there are bad things.
happy things:
those that wouls of saw on ym fb. lol i wont a blackberry 9700 white =] very prettyfull indeed lol. and for those taht have noidea wat it is, and what its like. checkk ittt ouutttttt
hehe my White Blackberry ironic much?
anywho thats it for the happy and good stuff.
as for the others...where should i start?
well first things first.
here i am sitting here after a dramatic night. updating this blog of mine that i dont even no y i bother updating.
tonight is prob one of those night that id look bak on always,. regret in a way.. but not realli. did it for a reason. not a very good one though. well at least its a mission accomplish. dont hav to hold anyone bak anymore
they can live their own life without any interuption how good is that?
alothough it took a while but good enough. its done and wats done is done
from now on pee is going to facce everything by herself and learn it the hard way.
that is a fact.
tonight she gambled and lost everything she had.
wasit worht it?
that i still dont know.
i actully pictured to be tears involoved. but suprisingly there isnt, did it run dry? i guess u can say. i jus cbb animore.
totally looking forward to this holiday
plans so far...
mon- work
tues- work
weds- work
thurs-work
fri- traning?
sat - work
sun - work
3 months of this?
tootally cant wait.
i'll update this tommo.. with better things to say i hope. right now. its over
O - V - E - R for real
be happy~
Pee
happy things:
those that wouls of saw on ym fb. lol i wont a blackberry 9700 white =] very prettyfull indeed lol. and for those taht have noidea wat it is, and what its like. checkk ittt ouutttttt
hehe my White Blackberry ironic much?
anywho thats it for the happy and good stuff.
as for the others...where should i start?
well first things first.
here i am sitting here after a dramatic night. updating this blog of mine that i dont even no y i bother updating.
tonight is prob one of those night that id look bak on always,. regret in a way.. but not realli. did it for a reason. not a very good one though. well at least its a mission accomplish. dont hav to hold anyone bak anymore
they can live their own life without any interuption how good is that?
alothough it took a while but good enough. its done and wats done is done
from now on pee is going to facce everything by herself and learn it the hard way.
that is a fact.
tonight she gambled and lost everything she had.
wasit worht it?
that i still dont know.
i actully pictured to be tears involoved. but suprisingly there isnt, did it run dry? i guess u can say. i jus cbb animore.
totally looking forward to this holiday
plans so far...
mon- work
tues- work
weds- work
thurs-work
fri- traning?
sat - work
sun - work
3 months of this?
tootally cant wait.
i'll update this tommo.. with better things to say i hope. right now. its over
O - V - E - R for real
be happy~
Pee
what we could have been, 5:02 AM.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Feeling kinda blue... therefore decided to write in blue..well. holiday offically started... no more uni... not till sometime next year.. i should be excited however.. im not?..
instead of sounding all depressed for now.. let start on something mroe exciting shall we?
sunday night/monday morning
went for my second mid-night snack adventure with tiffany ^^
this time we ended up at pancakes AT THE rocks =Dwe had a pizzaaa some bread crust thing and and ribeye steak loljus thought id share some picccs while im at it ^^
o0o as for dessert we had the "devils Delight"
well that night/morning was definitly something different.
rocked up at the rocks around 2 somehitng
was rather funni actully. first thing i noticed once we walked into pancakes at the rock was a old friend of mmine. n tiffs. Sabiq from long long long time ago. a friend of ours "back in the days" when we all use to train in wushu every weds night..
mann.. how muchh i miss those days and long for it again... though i no it wont happen again... at least not anytime soon....
we ordered, we waited, we talked, we ate.
eventually we got home at 415am - well tiffs home.
i remeber during our convo i listened most of the time. im glad i did. but somehow when i was listening to the convo.. i felt like i was kinda listening to myself at the same time. what ever that T is feeling at that moment.. i had that feelin too.. ages ago... and now too.... the whole feeling of being left out.. yet when i think about it.. i got no one to blame other then myself. its true wat i told her.. its not like im going to get anywhere if i dont make the move. if i jus sit here and complain its not like im going to get anything out of it.. not like those "friends" of mine will all come at once...
its actully been like this for the pass year.. and the years before i guess..
previous years.. i managed.. but this year.. it hits me real hard.. the fact that theres uni.. all those random exmas and essays and assignment in between.. then theres work to fillup all those other "free time: of mine...
as for now... "holidays" it realli makes no difference....
allmy time are jus working now... pretty much 7 days a week.. now that i said i'll help out on the monday too.. i've jus been thinking as well.
y am i working so much? what am i even getting out of it? whats the point?
at times like this i jus really want to drop everything and not work. but then folowing that thought... i thiknk what am i going to do then? there really is nothing to do..
thought goign through my head like a cycle.. its stupidd...
i dont intend to make this long blog.. i no there is still i lot more in my head atm.. but i dont think i feel like mentioning it at this momnet.. maybe in the blogs to come..
hahha a way to keep u guys interested and wanting to raed my blogs..
jokes jokes..
o well im off... got work later...
CHerrs~
<3 Peee
instead of sounding all depressed for now.. let start on something mroe exciting shall we?
sunday night/monday morning
went for my second mid-night snack adventure with tiffany ^^
this time we ended up at pancakes AT THE rocks =Dwe had a pizzaaa some bread crust thing and and ribeye steak loljus thought id share some picccs while im at it ^^
o0o as for dessert we had the "devils Delight"
well that night/morning was definitly something different.
rocked up at the rocks around 2 somehitng
was rather funni actully. first thing i noticed once we walked into pancakes at the rock was a old friend of mmine. n tiffs. Sabiq from long long long time ago. a friend of ours "back in the days" when we all use to train in wushu every weds night..
mann.. how muchh i miss those days and long for it again... though i no it wont happen again... at least not anytime soon....
we ordered, we waited, we talked, we ate.
eventually we got home at 415am - well tiffs home.
i remeber during our convo i listened most of the time. im glad i did. but somehow when i was listening to the convo.. i felt like i was kinda listening to myself at the same time. what ever that T is feeling at that moment.. i had that feelin too.. ages ago... and now too.... the whole feeling of being left out.. yet when i think about it.. i got no one to blame other then myself. its true wat i told her.. its not like im going to get anywhere if i dont make the move. if i jus sit here and complain its not like im going to get anything out of it.. not like those "friends" of mine will all come at once...
its actully been like this for the pass year.. and the years before i guess..
previous years.. i managed.. but this year.. it hits me real hard.. the fact that theres uni.. all those random exmas and essays and assignment in between.. then theres work to fillup all those other "free time: of mine...
as for now... "holidays" it realli makes no difference....
allmy time are jus working now... pretty much 7 days a week.. now that i said i'll help out on the monday too.. i've jus been thinking as well.
y am i working so much? what am i even getting out of it? whats the point?
at times like this i jus really want to drop everything and not work. but then folowing that thought... i thiknk what am i going to do then? there really is nothing to do..
thought goign through my head like a cycle.. its stupidd...
i dont intend to make this long blog.. i no there is still i lot more in my head atm.. but i dont think i feel like mentioning it at this momnet.. maybe in the blogs to come..
hahha a way to keep u guys interested and wanting to raed my blogs..
jokes jokes..
o well im off... got work later...
CHerrs~
<3 Peee
what we could have been, 3:40 AM.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
well well well.
wat can i say. the last time that i updated this blog was all the way back in Jan.
and y the urge to update this all of a sudden?
i guess its pretty much because the exams over and had a few things going though my head tonite.
but first this is first, EXAMS OVER BABYY!! and believe it or not.. thats my FIRST YR UNI somehow "accomplished".... to a certain extent... ignoring the fact tht i may have to repeat my subject =D shhhhh...
Second.... to keep the promise to myself to update this every so often instead of every 6 month or so... lol
hope i can keep this up. regardless of it being a long blog or a short blog...
Third. the two simple words "its over" can mean alot of things. and from jus those two words alone, theres alot that i learnt.
i guess u can say taht i learnt not to be hopeful over somthing that shouldnt of happened or WILL not happen...
i learnt that theres no point in reminiscing about the past..although its temping to do so... i guess once in a while is not too bad...
learnt to move on?
learnt to learn?... cant think of any more.. i give up...
aniwhooo, right now...
im patiently sitting here waiting for tommo to come... waiting for my mid-night snack adventure to arrive.... and that shalll be another story that we'll all need to wait and hear n read =)
Cheeerrss~
<3
wat can i say. the last time that i updated this blog was all the way back in Jan.
and y the urge to update this all of a sudden?
i guess its pretty much because the exams over and had a few things going though my head tonite.
but first this is first, EXAMS OVER BABYY!! and believe it or not.. thats my FIRST YR UNI somehow "accomplished".... to a certain extent... ignoring the fact tht i may have to repeat my subject =D shhhhh...
Second.... to keep the promise to myself to update this every so often instead of every 6 month or so... lol
hope i can keep this up. regardless of it being a long blog or a short blog...
Third. the two simple words "its over" can mean alot of things. and from jus those two words alone, theres alot that i learnt.
i guess u can say taht i learnt not to be hopeful over somthing that shouldnt of happened or WILL not happen...
i learnt that theres no point in reminiscing about the past..although its temping to do so... i guess once in a while is not too bad...
learnt to move on?
learnt to learn?... cant think of any more.. i give up...
aniwhooo, right now...
im patiently sitting here waiting for tommo to come... waiting for my mid-night snack adventure to arrive.... and that shalll be another story that we'll all need to wait and hear n read =)
Cheeerrss~
<3
what we could have been, 5:33 AM.
