Saturday, November 12, 2011
Ouching at the fact that i am suppose to be starting my research paper. and be as close as a finish. yet i've done nothing but finding excuses that it is ok. i can finish it soon once i make a start i can finish....
and that is what i am doing at this very moment.... finding an excuse and ignoring what is ahead of me..
Regretting the fact that i am not going to the KPOP music fest concert that i've always wanted to go.... regretting the fact that i didnt get to do something that i really wanted to accomplish...
in a way.. i know that if i was to go, i'll regret it if i didnt finish the stupid research papers and study for these exams.
already failed before and dont want to do it again. the consequences of failing is just too much.. both time and money....
and now that i finally decided to not go... im regretting it also...
so its a lose lose situation. not a win win.
owell.
Ouch again since that i realize how long i havent blogged and kept up to date with my friend..s..?
so much had happened not just on myself but others that i fail to take notice in.
i am sorry for not noticing and be there to help.
maybe i won't end up being any help even if i was there..... what am i thinking.. honestly....
maybe i should make a move. and i will. after this blog. mmmm...
what else. sigh. typing as i am saying this out. bad english and bad gramma. man i just dont change do i.
not improving much in english.... and downgrading in chinese.. what a position i am in.
i give up. maybe blog again soon...
soon,...
sooon.. (ha, my kinda soon is not as soon as u think it may be...)
and that is what i am doing at this very moment.... finding an excuse and ignoring what is ahead of me..
Regretting the fact that i am not going to the KPOP music fest concert that i've always wanted to go.... regretting the fact that i didnt get to do something that i really wanted to accomplish...
in a way.. i know that if i was to go, i'll regret it if i didnt finish the stupid research papers and study for these exams.
already failed before and dont want to do it again. the consequences of failing is just too much.. both time and money....
and now that i finally decided to not go... im regretting it also...
so its a lose lose situation. not a win win.
owell.
Ouch again since that i realize how long i havent blogged and kept up to date with my friend..s..?
so much had happened not just on myself but others that i fail to take notice in.
i am sorry for not noticing and be there to help.
maybe i won't end up being any help even if i was there..... what am i thinking.. honestly....
maybe i should make a move. and i will. after this blog. mmmm...
what else. sigh. typing as i am saying this out. bad english and bad gramma. man i just dont change do i.
not improving much in english.... and downgrading in chinese.. what a position i am in.
i give up. maybe blog again soon...
soon,...
sooon.. (ha, my kinda soon is not as soon as u think it may be...)
what we could have been, 2:08 AM.
